Good evening, I’m not going to lie and say that things are peachy because they are not. My mind has been in overdrive for a very long time and it’s starting to take a hold of me. Now i’ve never been a person to ask , beg nor tell a lot of whats going on in my mind. thats not really a great thing but it has always been that way with me. It’s hard being me sometimes because I feel like im not fully undrstood , or I think people know they just take advantage of who I am. One of many arguments I would have with my mom when she was a live was, that I give all of me to unworthy people. She always felt that I gave all of myself and was too thoughtful for people who would never do that for anyone else including me. She would also say that what I gave people , specially people whom I cared for was uncondtional ,yet what I reeieved was conditional.

Im an emotional and loving person , my heart is always on the line. That doesn’t mean I need others to be the same way , that just means I need people who are understanding and learn me. Meaning my language! My expectations of people are high and thats where I become disapointed because they did not meet that mark. Its not like I asked for a kidney I ask to meet me half way. I’m not complicated , I just want to love I give, but my love if not your love.

I’m always thinking about how I can help a person, to take the load off of them. I always offer my help , im not rich but I make a way with everything. God is so good to me. At the end of the day I can only be me. Hopefully I can get my roses while im still on this earth.

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3 thoughts on “Trying to stay me!

  1. You are the rose, my dear.
    I hear your pain at being misunderstood and underappreciated.
    It’s hard to be the one that’s always giving if you’re not getting your cup filled.
    I’d love to catch up with you and explore this more.
    I love you so much,
    Amy

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